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Draft Two: 7 January 2025

N.B. In the interest of having single day drafts, this is the first draft up until reflection of July 2023.

I generally title posts like this a reflection, for a few reasons. Mostly, I want to use it as a way of seeing what goals I’ve had, kept, lost, and picked up. However, this musing is meant to serve a different role.

Up to this point, I’ve mostly been treating what’s changed in my life as though it’s no more a change than any other sudden shift, like studying abroad or graduating. I don’t know if even now I’ve come to terms with all of the ways that my life is forever fundamentally altered for having lost my mother. Goals that relied, in any way, shape, or form, on her direct motivation1 need new reasons. So, even as I look back at my past to see what my goals once were, my focus today is almost entirely on the future. I am willing to discard any goal I once had that no longer serves me.2

Time to go through every reflection I’ve had.3

Back in January of 2019, I had the goal of writing a sonnet every day. I do think that forcing myself to do something creative, in both senses of the word, and analog before bed time is ultimately good for me. Much as I think this, however, I don’t love sonnet form. I’m tempted to try common verse, because I do really enjoy alternating tetrameter and triameter. However, unlike a sonnet, common verse does not have a set number of stanzas or lines. Worth considering, at least.

Three years later4, I wanted to blog daily5. I was working through the Bible in a Year that year, and had the goal of keeping up on it. I also wanted to work on working out and writing music.

Apparently that February was the only February I reflected on. Interesting that I lose focus in the springtime. More or less, the same as January, though with working on my book6 added in.

March has also only been reflected on once, and I misdid the naming of the url. As before, with practicing guitar added in.

In April, I wanted to finish a draft of a paper I needed to write.

June7 brought the idea of listing the exciting things that had happened to me in the past month. That’s probably something that’s worth bringing back? It also added the goals of accordion practice and writing short stories.

In July I wanted to be able to run a little over five miles continuously, stretch, work on an exam, and revise my book.8

Poems, journaling,9 and curricular development were my August goals of note.

September had me hoping to work on my 24 for 24 list.10

I wanted to do NaNoWriMo and fill out 24 for 24 in October.

NOTE: At this point in the musing, I realized that I’ve been looking at the goals moving forward, so generally transpose all the goals forward one time unit.

I had the insane goal in November or December of that year of writing another 50K word book.

On the start of 2023, I wanted to add daily rosaries to my list, along with working through the Catechism in a Year.

February brought no new goals.

In May of that year, I split my goals into professional, personal, and growth. In general, they were single things that I needed to accomplish, and I should not forget the value of static goals. I also wanted to get back into bagpiping, which is also a thing I miss. Wildly, I hadn’t written any public outreach talks at that point. I know that it’s something I really started in graduate school, but it’s so weird to me that I only really started to do it about 20 months ago.

June had me counting my monthly words, and split goals into finite11 and growth. I wanted to get up at 6am daily, get ahead on my book, and write letters to friends. I also wanted to invite friends over to my home, because I was happy with its state.12

That same month, I also reflected on the reflections themselves. In that post, I introduced my concept of actually tracking my goals.13

In July, I wanted to be able to have friends over, which necessitated a clean home. That’s really it for changes.

August brought the goal of finishing a talk and nothing else.

September had me reflecting forwards14 on what excited me about the coming month, which seems like a good goal. I also started work on my album, which I have yet to finish.

In October I gave small snippets of explanation for why each goal was set.15

November had me commenting that the month had passed me by for reasons I should have remembered. I don’t know if I recall them right now. It’s distinctly possible that October of 2023 was when I found out about my mother’s illness. I was apparently doing well enough at prayer then that I wanted to do better than a rushed rosary.

At the dawn of last year, I kept up my tradition of five things that I was excited for in the coming year. Let’s see how I did:

I may as well also list five good things that happened to me last year that I did not list:

I did also want to swim a mile, learn a polka, read through all my books. I did none of those, though I was generally ok at finishing the rest of my goals.

Nothing really new in July, though that came with my acknowledgment that I more or less had given up on blogging.

At the end of last year, I made a list of more or less every goal I had at the time. I then spent some time sorting them into different categories, like finite and infinite, goals for the near and far future, etc.

So, what have I learned from going through all my reflections?

In general, I always want to blog more, stretch more, and exercise more. Most of the time I want to pray more. I have also gone through different phases for how I reflect.

Going forwards, I think that I would like to continue monthly reflections, and I would like to do a few forward looking and backwards looking experiences. Looking through the goals from my last reflection, there are some changes and some similarities from there. So, what does this mean for me?

In 2025, I am excited to:

Goals for this year20:

Looking more short term, what are my goals for the rest of the month?

That’s a fair number of goals. How can we make this a daily and weekly check?

Daily:

Weekly:

Ok, that doesn’t actually seem so bad. Saturdays seem like they’ll start to be filled with activities which lead me to growth, which is always really nice. In general I do tend to find that I spend too much time wasting away on Saturdays, since I tend not to have anything in particular scheduled to do.

Draft One: 6 January 2025

I generally title posts like this a reflection, for a few reasons. Mostly, I want to use it as a way of seeing what goals I’ve had, kept, lost, and picked up. However, this musing is meant to serve a different role.

Up to this point, I’ve mostly been treating what’s changed in my life as though it’s no more a change than any other sudden shift, like studying abroad or graduating. I don’t know if even now I’ve come to terms with all of the ways that my life is forever fundamentally altered for having lost my mother. Goals that relied, in any way, shape, or form, on her direct motivation24 need new reasons. So, even as I look back at my past to see what my goals once were, my focus today is almost entirely on the future. I am willing to discard any goal I once had that no longer serves me.25

Time to go through every reflection I’ve had.26

Back in January of 2019, I had the goal of writing a sonnet every day. I do think that forcing myself to do something creative, in both senses of the word, and analog before bed time is ultimately good for me. Much as I think this, however, I don’t love sonnet form. I’m tempted to try common verse, because I do really enjoy alternating tetrameter and triameter. However, unlike a sonnet, common verse does not have a set number of stanzas or lines. Worth considering, at least.

Three years later27, I wanted to blog daily28. I was working through the Bible in a Year that year, and had the goal of keeping up on it. I also wanted to work on working out and writing music.

Apparently that February was the only February I reflected on. Interesting that I lose focus in the springtime. More or less, the same as January, though with working on my book29 added in.

March has also only been reflected on once, and I misdid the naming of the url. As before, with practicing guitar added in.

In April, I wanted to finish a draft of a paper I needed to write.

June30 brought the idea of listing the exciting things that had happened to me in the past month. That’s probably something that’s worth bringing back? It also added the goals of accordion practice and writing short stories.

In July I wanted to be able to run a little over five miles continuously, stretch, work on an exam, and revise my book.31

Poems, journaling,32 and curricular development were my August goals of note.

September had me hoping to work on my 24 for 24 list.33

I wanted to do NaNoWriMo and fill out 24 for 24 in October.

NOTE: At this point in the musing, I realized that I’ve been looking at the goals moving forward, so generally transpose all the goals forward one time unit.

I had the insane goal in November or December of that year of writing another 50K word book.

On the start of 2023, I wanted to add daily rosaries to my list, along with working through the Catechism in a Year.

February brought no new goals.

In May of that year, I split my goals into professional, personal, and growth. In general, they were single things that I needed to accomplish, and I should not forget the value of static goals. I also wanted to get back into bagpiping, which is also a thing I miss. Wildly, I hadn’t written any public outreach talks at that point. I know that it’s something I really started in graduate school, but it’s so weird to me that I only really started to do it about 20 months ago.

June had me counting my monthly words, and split goals into finite34 and growth. I wanted to get up at 6am daily, get ahead on my book, and write letters to friends. I also wanted to invite friends over to my home, because I was happy with its state.35

That same month, I also reflected on the reflections themselves. In that post, I introduced my concept of actually tracking my goals.36

In July, I wanted to be able to have friends over, which necessitated a clean home. That’s really it for changes.

August brought the goal of finishing a talk and nothing else.


  1. or even indirect

  2. this is an aspirational statement, not necessarily indicative of any real fact.

  3. at least those which I was smart enough to title “reflection-”

  4. and horrifyingly, almost three years ago

  5. which was true in the prior reflection, and is likely going to be true in every future one, so I’m just going to stop mentioning it

  6. now my web serial

  7. nope I did not miss a month, no clue what you’re talking about

  8. assume that goals are generally transferred between each month unless otherwise noted

  9. ah, right, the spell checker I use doesn’t like journal to be a gerund

  10. Which, realistically, is probably a good thing for me to bring back this year

  11. static from above

  12. what a wild concept, honestly

  13. For those reading, yes, it took me more than five years from starting a blog to realize that I could (and realistically, should) track the goals I have

  14. projecting??

  15. Ok so that’s something that’s been extant before, but

  16. initially: Finish my album. Realizing that I’ve been nominally working on this for 18 months really just goes to show me how much I need to finish it.

  17. initially: Restart my web serial and find a way to make it a healthy and growth-inspiring habit, but I realize that it was a goal, not an experience

  18. or so I hear that’s what the wedding is

  19. meager just feels like such a British word that I cannot help but spell it meagre

  20. taken liberally from my 2024B reflection

  21. I don’t really know how to describe it, maybe ensemble?

  22. why non-musical? see the other musical goals and also below.

  23. I know that I’m starting very late, but there’s every chance that I’ve done novel things since my last birthday that I have noted somewhere. If not, well, that might be a sign that this summer will have to be filled with growth.

  24. or even indirect

  25. this is an aspirational statement, not necessarily indicative of any real fact.

  26. at least those which I was smart enough to title “reflection-”

  27. and horrifyingly, almost three years ago

  28. which was true in the prior reflection, and is likely going to be true in every future one, so I’m just going to stop mentioning it

  29. now my web serial

  30. nope I did not miss a month, no clue what you’re talking about

  31. assume that goals are generally transferred between each month unless otherwise noted

  32. ah, right, the spell checker I use doesn’t like journal to be a gerund

  33. Which, realistically, is probably a good thing for me to bring back this year

  34. static from above

  35. what a wild concept, honestly

  36. For those reading, yes, it took me more than five years from starting a blog to realize that I could (and realistically, should) track the goals I have