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Open Mic

First Published: 2022 March 8

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I accidentally missed the posting last night, because I delayed writing until I went to see a friend perform. It was really fun, and I’m so happy to have friends who make music.

Reflections on Today’s Gospel

First Published: 2022 March 6

Deuteronomy 26:7: “we cried to the LORD, the God of our ancestors, and the LORD heard our cry and saw our affliction, our toil and our oppression”

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The Lenten Season has begun, and with it the change of emotion for the readings. This Gospel has been interesting to me since I learned that Satan in the Old Testament is not a rebel angel, but one of the faithful.1 It causes me to wonder a bit whether the temptations that our Lord receives are from the Betrayer or from a loyal angel simply doing his job. In the end, it doesn’t really matter, because our Lord resists the temptations, even while starving.

I don’t know if I could stop myself from making bread from stones if I had fasted for a day, let alone forty. We are called to be more like Christ in every way, and self-denial is definitely somewhere I can improve.


  1. I think?↩︎

Bad Ideas

First Published: 2022 March 5

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Yesterday I mentioned that I had an idea for the blog post today. As is too often the case, the ideas I had late at night while half asleep didn’t seem so nice in the light of day.

I was going to blog about, as mentioned bagpipes in funerals, which is a thought that I’ve had for a few years. As I started to talk my way through the post, though1 I realized that the way I wanted to express the idea in many respects cheapened the idea. So, instead I get to meta-blog about how I write nowadays.

I was finding this week that I lacked the motivation and direction to keep writing my story. For a few days I thought it might be that I was just tired of writing, but as I started this weekend, I realized it’s that I haven’t given my mind time to process the story.

I spent about half an hour before bed two nights ago thinking about where the story could go, and when I went to write the story again, the words started flowing out. I guess it’s a good reminder that my mind needs time to sit and think without external stimuli, or at least without mental stimuli. Walking without music or praying has also worked for me, as does driving without music. In the future I should try scheduling more time for silent thought.


  1. If this isn’t how you write I have questions↩︎

Quick Post

First Published: 2022 March 4

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I almost forgot to blog today, and nearly fell asleep before doing so. My computer is nearly dead, and my mind is nearly shut down. Tomorrow I plan to write about a thought I had with bagpipes and funerals, which reminded me I needed to do this.

Scholastic Metaphysics Chapter 2

First Published: 2022 March 3

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This week I will be smart and read the chapter to try to respond to the questions at the back, rather than freeform note-taking while I read1

  1. What is the meaning of “a being”? What are its two distinct but inseparable elements?

  2. How can we reach explicit reflective awareness of the “is” in being? Do all metaphysical systems agree on this focus on actual existence as the central core of all real beings?

  3. What is meant by the “vocation of human beings” as endowed with intellect arising from the relation of intellect to being? In what sense can being still remain a “mystery” for us?

  4. Explain the difference between “real being” and “mental being”? Examples of each? What is the key criterion for our distinguishing between the two?

  5. Explain the fundamental importance of action as the self-manifestation of being if we are to have a “universe”? Could there be at least one completely inactive being?

  6. Finite (all limited, created) real beings go out of themselves to relate themselves to others through action for two reasons: what are they? Does it make sense to speak, as Maritain does, of “the intrinsic generosity of being”?

  7. In the philosophical vision of St. Thomas, action is the key to a realist epistemology, or theory of knowledge. Why? Why can it then be called a “relational realism”? Why does it also follow from this vantage point that all our human knowledge of real beings (at least in this life) must be incomplete, imperfect?

  8. Why in this book do we take the person as the best model for what it means to be a real being? Compare briefly the ancient, medieval, and modern approaches to the philosophical study of being.

  9. What is the point of choosing interpersonal dialogue as the preferred starting point for a metaphysical study of being? Why is it especially effective in refuting Kant’s attempt to block access to any realist theory of knowledge or metaphysics?

I think it might be helpful for me to try answering these questions both before and while/after reading the chapter, so that I can see how well my starting assumptions/things I have learned in the past line up with what the book claims.

So, my starting guesses as answers:

Time to read!


  1. pp 40 and 41↩︎

  2. Complete wag↩︎

  3. practicing for my thesis exam↩︎

On Fasting

First Published: 2022 February 23

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Today is Ash Wednesday, which is a traditional day of fasting in the Catholic Church.1 Additionally, the Pope dedicated today as a day of fasting and prayer for peace in Ukraine. So, I found myself fasting today.

Something major that I’ve noticed about my fasting self is that I struggle to focus far more. I guess less so I struggle to focus and moreso that I struggle to begin working. Once I start working, I have been able to finish at least as much as normal, though maybe at a slower rate.

This gives me some interesting knowledge. Apparently if I am feeling unfocused and hazy in the future I should consider whether I’ve eaten enough recently.

Moving past my own experience of how fasting is less than ideal2 for my work life3, I do think that fasting helps me refocus my days. I haven’t done as good of a job today recentering myself when I feel hungry on faith, and I think that’s something that I can work about in the future. That’s something I could work on in the future I think, and it would probably make my life better for doing so.


  1. in case a single one of my readers was unaware

  2. which is not really the point of Ash Wednesday

  3. wow there are so many commentaries I could make here about American Grindset Culture

Monthly Reflection

First Published: 2022 March 1

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New monthly reflection!

My goals were:

  1. Blog daily

  2. Compose a poem and music daily

  3. Do the pushup/squat thing daily

  4. Listen to BiaY Daily

  5. Track my daily doings better in my journal

I think I made a blog every day which was great. I composed maybe five or ten days, which is still progress I think. I gave up on the pushup/squats, but I restarted yesterday! I listened maybe half the days in BiaY. I think I just entirely gave up on the journal.

So, apparently bad goals. New goals for the month of March:

  1. Blog daily. I think this is still a helpful thing for me to do

  2. Write music or poetry daily. I would like to do this, even if it is hard

  3. Do the pushup/squat thing and stretch daily. I liked how I felt when I did this

  4. Listen to BiaY Daily. I like making progress on it.

  5. Reach 50000 words in my book. I’m currently at more than 20K, so this should be very doable.

That seems pretty decent!

Chocolate Cake

First Published: 2022 February 23

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Directions for this attempt at the chocolate cake recipe I used to compete in the competition series.1

  1. Preheat Oven to 350F

  2. Beat together:

  3. Melt 1.5 Sticks butter together until frothy,2 add 8 oz chocolate to that

  4. Mix well, until chocolate is dissolved

  5. Combine with liquids and 25g flour.

  6. Pour into well-greased tin

  7. Bake until edges pulling from side and middle seems done (8 minutes for cupcake, 16 for cake pan)

  8. Let cool most of the way

  9. Invert on a plate before fully cool

Why am I baking this, you might ask. Mostly because tomorrow is the last day of Ordinary Time, which feels like a good time to celebrate. That, and I haven’t baked in a few weeks which is sad.


  1. I’m not linking them because they’re a bit cringe

  2. Approx 230F

Reflections on Today’s Gospel

First Published: 2022 February 27

Lule 6:44A “For every tree is known by its own fruit.”

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Today is the last Sunday before Lent. I find the readings, and especially their connection, really powerful as we approach this next Liturgical phase.

The Gospel tells us that “A good tree does not bear rotten fruit, nor does a rotten tree bear good fruit. For every tree is known by its own fruit. For people do not pick figs from thornbushes, nor do they gather grapes from brambles.”1 We are also told in the First Reading that “The fruit of a tree shows the care it has had,”2 From these two lines, I at least see that we see the care of a tree making it good or rotten.

When taking care of a tree, it feels tempting to give it more and constant sunshine, since that’s where its energy comes from. But, the nighttime is also essential to the growth of a tree. Night is when a plant does much of its growing apparently3, and it is essential to their growth and flowering. So, too, are the different periods in the Liturgical Year essential to our growth in faith.

A tree grows in the sunshine because it has the energy there and immediately available to grow. So too, do we grow in our days of feasting, seeing the Lord in his joy and goodness. But, at night time a tree grows to find the sunlight again. So too, do we grow in our days of fasting as we think on the many blessings we have been given, far in excess of what we deserve.

The homily I heard tonight made the claim that focusing on fixing temporal ills is ultimately meaningless, because the world will end.4 In the example, a man brings about world peace and dies, feeling satisfied. Two years later, an asteroid destroys the earth. The priest’s claim was that this shows the meaningless of earthly accomplishments, because everything he did was undone in a few years. I took the opposite message away, though. For the two years after his death, there was no hunger pulling people from Christ, no war ending lives needlessly. Even one moment free of needless hardship for one person makes temporal good worth it to me.


  1. Luke 6:43-44↩︎

  2. Sirach 27:6A↩︎

  3. so says a random internet source↩︎

  4. I think, it was a little unclear to me↩︎

Even More Writer’s Block

First Published: 2022 February 26

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Today as I tried to write this post I felt a different sort of writer’s block than the other two times that I’ve had it for the blog. In both of those cases, I felt as though I had no ideas for what to write.

Today, that does not feel true for me. I have a couple of ideas for posts I could write, but they don’t feel like they belong here.

I read through an old post where I mentioned that I might want to write a musical piece featuring silly putty. I’m sure that writing about that could be interesting, but I don’t have silly putty with me to write the post. My group did all get slime for Valentine’s Day, so I guess I’m now within easy access of that, though I no longer plan to write that piece.

I thought about writing about the way my life is different than how I think of it. I never really consciously chose to move away from music in the way that I have, so it makes me really sad that music has become such a1 small part of my life. Thoughts have yet to percolate enough in my mind for the coffee of that idea to be worth drinking.2

I thought about reflecting on the way that I very much did not follow what I said I would do at the end of January, but that should really wait for the end of month reflection.

Finally, I thought about another update on the book I’m writing, but not a lot has really changed there, and I don’t really like this blog being a commentary on that writing as I do it. So, despite the 2923 non-footnoted words, I don’t really know what to say here. I guess I do find it interesting which of my posts get more and less footnoted. I have been relying less on footnotes in recent posts, which is either a good sign that I am maturing as a writer and no longer feel the need for gimmicks, or a sign that I’ve been mentally exhausted constantly. I’m personally really hoping it’s the former not the latter.


  1. relatively, I am still in 3 choirs and tend to make music 4-6 days a week for and with other people↩︎

  2. wow that’s a forced metaphor↩︎

  3. yes, I waited to write that number until I had the correct count↩︎